Farewell for now...

I've kind of disappeared lately, I know I have, and it's for several reasons. It is true that I have been incredibly busy and I still do not have internet which doesn't help either. But somewhat recently someone tried to interrupt my life by trying to use my other more personal “blog” against me. It's not even a blog really, at least I've never called it a blog, b/c its sole purpose has always been a means of communication for me and my closest friends who don't live in the immediate area. Some of my best friends are from Central America, and whether they are in the US or back home it's how we keep each other updated on our lives when we can't always talk.

I don't really know what this person was trying to accomplish, it didn't really work, but it has unfortunately made me re-think blogging, at least for the time being. I don't really want to say too much more about this. I will say that I am fine and am not in any sort of trouble, I never wrote anything that could ever get me in any legal trouble because I'm too smart for that, so I don't want anyone thinking that's the case. The other blog was just me ranting about more personal aspects of my life with friends I've had for years who did the same thing. I mean we've all had this blog thing going since like 2004, so it chronicled events and emotions associated with events such as me graduating from college, the death of my grandmother, and getting over my first real heart break, with a lot of blonde booziness in between. I am not ashamed of anything I’ve ever written in there (with perhaps the exception of the completely incoherent drunk post here and there, we all know how much I love the computer when I'm drunk) but someone decided to try to get me in trouble for it regardless of the fact that it never caused anyone harm and was solely a place for me to vent my feelings.

So in short, the situation has succeeded in spooking me to the point that right now I don't really feel comfortable writing here anymore. Maybe this is bad and I should be more of the "fuck them if I'm going to let them run my life like that" mindset but due to certain circumstances I just can't right now. I don't want to get into details but all fingers point to a somewhat mentally imbalanced person who has tried (and at times succeeded) to cause me harm in the past (read: over 6 months ago) and who still enjoys reading my 2 blogs several times a day, every day, over 6 months later, despite the fact that they know I can see each time they visit due to the site meter things. I plan on continuing to read the fascinating bloggers I've encountered during my short stint in blogworld, and maybe soon I'll find out that I'm being overly precautious and will feel comfortable here again. I certainly hope so.

But until then I can only say that I don't understand why people can't just mind their own business and leave others well enough alone. Why can't people focus on making themselves happy, instead of trying (and failing) to make other people miserable? Wouldn't it be more productive to focus your energy on bettering yourself and your own life, instead of focusing on trying to sabotage someone else's? I will never understand people who purposely try to cause others pain, and for no better reason then that they are just plain miserable themselves. Even if I'm wrong and the person I suspect was not responsible, I still don't understand why people who have nothing to do with me or my life feel the need to try to cause me problems for no real reason whatsoever. I’m sure this person will read this, and I commend you on your cowardice and thank you for the results this situation has given me, I assure you I have profited greatly from the experience, both fiscally and emotionally.

I have always really appreciated the comments, insight, advice and anecdotes people have left me over time, it has thrilled me in so many ways to know that people actually wanted to read what I had to say. I thank you all for that. I know it sounds corny and emo, but let's face it, I have a ridiculously corny and emo side, and that side of me feels the need to go all Hallmark and thank you guys for touching my life. Yeah I said it, the most golden of Hallmark messages, I so totally went there. I really do hope this is just me being neurotic (also a good possibility) and that once things settle down I will feel safe here again, but until then I wish everyone the best. Maybe I'll make it to a happy hour some time in the future...

Feel free to email me at theblondemenace@gmail.com.